Islam saved my mind. All I can say.
I was asked to make a thread on how Islam saved my mind, so I will explain how.
II’ve struggled with my mental health since childhood bc I was being sexually abused during my primary school years. I knew it was wrong at the time, but not just how wrong it was. The older I got, the more I understood and it was evident I was struggling to process the trauma.
I became depressed at 15, which lead to anxiety, which developed to bipolar. I’m against medication because I don’t want the dependency and I believe, anything I’m feeling rn, Allah swt needs me to feel so I can never forget His purpose for me.
Poor mental health meant it was difficult for me to stay afloat in many aspects of my life and I’d find myself in abusive situations.
If you know anything about bipolar, you’d know when you’re up, you’re on top of the world but when you’re down, you’re down bad.
If you know anything about bipolar, you’d know when you’re up, you’re on top of the world but when you’re down, you’re down bad.
Mania is the scarier part of bipolar for me bc it’s difficult to trust my decisions when I feel good bc months down the line, I can look back at all the carnage I’ve managed to cause for myself🤣 and I’m not gon undo it either. I’m gon leave it be. 💀
In connection with Islam, I’ve always had an interest and asked loads of questions throughout primary to uni.
Anything any of the sisters said combatted the ignorance I’d heard about Islam so I knew I was open to the religion but I didn’t have anyone close enough to me to give me guidance on how to start practising.
I’m close with a brother and I watched him practise last Ramadan. I’d ask him questions and he’d tell me to research for myself. He never opened his mouth once to try to get me to revert with his words, the beauty of Islam spoke through his actions. I was convinced girl. 🤣
Last October, I could feel the potential of falling into a very bad space. I couldn’t eat or sleep (I knew where this was headed) so I made the decision to take Islam serious bc I knew it was above me at this point.
I started off small by following Islamic pages and gained so much peace through just those small quotes. Just from the quotes alone, I knew this felt right.
Any time I would read anything Islamic, my heart would be put at ease.
The first assurance I can remember is that if Allah swt got me and He is bigger than anything that exists or is yet to exist, which person, or situation, can do me any harm?
The first assurance I can remember is that if Allah swt got me and He is bigger than anything that exists or is yet to exist, which person, or situation, can do me any harm?
Early this year, I started reading the (English translated version of the) Qur’an every night. (This version has loads of footnotes, which is perfect for me because I love to understand topics in depth)
I didn’t walk through life without finding my own moral beliefs. I’ve found all my beliefs in the Qur’an. Ofc I had questions, and questioned God as I knew Him to be but they’re now answered.
I can’t speak for anybody else but any situation I had genuine faith in, Allah swt has always came through.
Allah swt assigned me a purpose. I knew this before I tried to follow the teachings of Islam. Islam has just further validated my experiences won’t go in vain and that I matter. I’ve never felt more valued and loved in my life.
Finding Islam and reading the Qur’an has shown me, I don’t need anybody else but yet I’m still blessed enough to have wonderful, supportive people placed in my life. Maa shaa Allah.
If you are interested in Islam, need a source of peace, guidance, or just more knowledge, READ THE QUR’AN. Dm me!! I’ll help to answer any question you may have. If you’re reluctant, like I was, I promise you it’s not as daunting as it may seem.
A lot of things are above human comprehension or explanation, so I know I can’t verbally serve justice for all the ways Allah swt protects me but having clear guidance on how to live and inspiration to be better, when a lot of the time your head is muddled really saved my mind.
Being abused sexually and mentally will lower your self-esteem and self worth and having you living less than. But that isn’t how God needs you to live. Allah swt always reminds us that we will face Him one day. Your abuser will face Allah swt.
I didn’t go through what I did to be silenced and even more, to not speak out for others. Black lives matter. Every single one. If you’re reading this, please!!!!! take time to contribute to change in one way or another.
I’m not fully immersed in the Muslim community, so I appreciate every kind word and message and everybody who has followed me. I don’t know in-depth but there seems to be a disconnect between the protection of black Muslims.
Allah swt doesn’t discriminate. You can’t be of Allah swt and hold hate in your heart for anyone, let alone based on race.
Allah swt doesn’t discriminate. You can’t be of Allah swt and hold hate in your heart for anyone, let alone based on race.
Take this time to reflect. Do you hate black people or are ever ignorant to their pain? Do you overlook the pain of others point blank? Are you not enraged by the mistreatment of those who are defenceless? Do you seek to uplift in your daily life?
Do you pick and choose the elements of our teachings because it removes you from your place of comfort.
If you are silent, speak out. If you are ignorant, educate. There is so much suffering out here. So so so much. Enough is enough. I don’t want the posts to stop. I don’t want the protests to stop. I’m tired of sitting back. Nuh uh. If they won’t listen, we’re going to make them.
Everybody needs to speak out for each other!! Everybody needs to question themselves and look inside themselves even if it is uncomfortable!! It’s not too late for change. Change will not come unless our attitudes do.
Black lives matter.
Black lives matter.
Couple more tings.
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My super hot, super talented bestfriend @ama_louise sings. Go on her Twitter for her covers. If anybody is involved in music in any way, reach out to her (or me) Any support or guidance is valued. Thank you!
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This is my other bestfriend. She is super talented artist. Maa shaa Allah. Have some class. Take interest in the arts. But please, take some time to look at her work. @c14rk_
One more tiny request. Follow mi deh pon IG: britaingwd 🤣 I only got like 1 picture up of myself but it’s my birthday next month and I plan to shut shit down.
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Love both of you so much. You’ve supported me through everything. 😘
Love both of you so much. You’ve supported me through everything. 😘
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Hiya!
I have never felt so secure in my life. Thank you. My abuse is the most sacred thing to me and to have it handled with such care is all I’ve ever wanted.
Please subscribe to my YouTube channel. I won’t be silenced. I have more I must speak on.
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I have never felt so secure in my life. Thank you. My abuse is the most sacred thing to me and to have it handled with such care is all I’ve ever wanted.
Please subscribe to my YouTube channel. I won’t be silenced. I have more I must speak on.
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I never ever wanted to do no damn YouTube 🤣 but Allah swt has given me these experiences and I refuse to let mine or those of others go in vain.
Alhamdullilah always.❤️
Thanks again everyone.
Alhamdullilah always.❤️
Thanks again everyone.
Alhamdullilah always.
Thank you so much for reading and reaching out. I appreciate it more than anybody can imagine.
Please subscribe. I’ll drop my first video when I reach 300 subscribers.
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Thank you so much for reading and reaching out. I appreciate it more than anybody can imagine.
Please subscribe. I’ll drop my first video when I reach 300 subscribers.
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