depression is so difficult to deal with
I feel like I've stopped existing as myself, and now I'm just an observer who happens to have the memories of someone who used to be happy
I feel like I've stopped existing as myself, and now I'm just an observer who happens to have the memories of someone who used to be happy
I'm feeling lucky this only happens when I burn out at least, there's hope I can overcome this. but having this perspective now, I don't understand how people manage to live like this for their entire lives, it's a nightmare
I get an extremely strong need to be loved, but have absolutely no capacity to love back
it's amplifying my worst sides. it's hurting me and everyone else, to the point where I'm now scared to even talk about it
so I just avoid talking to anyone, that way that nobody gets hurt
it's amplifying my worst sides. it's hurting me and everyone else, to the point where I'm now scared to even talk about it
so I just avoid talking to anyone, that way that nobody gets hurt
my creative output is the only reliable way I know of to potentially have people like me as a person
and now I can't even do that, so my self worth is plummeting
and now I can't even do that, so my self worth is plummeting
I think I've come to realize I can only have one close relationship at any moment
I can't maintain more than that
and when I run into a setback with the few people I have close to me, or the person closest to me, it just hits me very very hard when I'm in this state of mind
I can't maintain more than that
and when I run into a setback with the few people I have close to me, or the person closest to me, it just hits me very very hard when I'm in this state of mind
actually my cats make me happy still, so there's that
I'm not really looking for messages of support, they usually don't help me anyway
I'm just venting out of frustration, feeling isolated, feeling unheard, feeling like I can't talk, feeling like I can't be myself
I'm just venting out of frustration, feeling isolated, feeling unheard, feeling like I can't talk, feeling like I can't be myself
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