everytime i sit down to maybe write an essay, there's a part of me that's like "fuck off mate i already wrote 20 twitter threads about this, i say we do pointless nonsense instead" and i'm like "honestly that seems very reasonable" so no new essays yet

my attempt at a sneaky synthesis is "ok how about for pointless nonsense we sorta screw around in our notes aimlessly", ("that's fine", he says) which is setting the scene for future essays when the time is right

another part of me feels bad about it "but shouldn't we have like a weekly or at least monthly publishing schedule?!?!" to which i'm like "that would be cool but if we stress out the guy who actually conduits the magic and he quits then we're stuck publishing shite week on week"

another fellow busts in with "weekly shite is good actually, you're all way too obsessive about quality" and another fellow yells "QUALITY IS PARAMOUNT AND NON-NEGOTIABLE" and it's just endless entertainment inside visakanv's head