so after my psychiatrist suggested I should get evaluated for autism, they finally got back to us, denying the request:
"yeah she's definitely on the spectrum but is an evaluation really necessary? she seems to have her life together"
:)

my psychiatrist told me that I seem to have designed my entire life and career in a very adaptive way for my brain, making it work in spite of what I struggle with, so she said an evaluation might get complicated due to that
and so here we are

*flipping through papers*
"it says here you got 100000 views on YouTube - in just 5 days?"
- yes ma'am
"then you can't possibly struggle with ASD"
- I, what
"I mean clearly you're on the spectrum but there's no need to investigate further. Next!"
- but, I don't un-
"NEXT!"

since some are asking "why apply to get evaluated?"
my psychiatrist suggested it as a way to get a deeper understanding in figuring out how to deal with my burnout and relationship issues, especially since this is the second time I'm burnt out, and she's seeing ASD-like patterns